Chuck Vs The First Kill
The Circle of Lies
We have reached the final three episodes of Season Two, and we are about to embark major character changes. Normally, I like to write a arc article for this, but with this being Jill’s final episode we will talk more about the dynamics of Jill Roberts and her mark left on the show.
We won’t diverge into the Buymore story because there is something bigger and more important than Milbarge getting Big Mike removed as the Buymore manager. Don’t be alarmed the reason for episode articles are for cases like this. We do have an episode article for this one Chuck vs First Kill
We also have a series of article pertaining to one Jill Roberts titled the Jill Factor, there are three parts to it. Jill Roberts Factor part one, Jill Roberts Factor Part Two, Jill Roberts Factor Part Three
We know Lou and in the next season Hannah will impose there will on Sarah personally, but they never reach the level of what Jill was about to accomplish with Sarah.
Roberts role as a real spy was a game changer, and since she knew how Fulcrum worked. Bartowski needed her to help locate his father. A game changer for sure because Jill Roberts is not a bad person. Bartowski using a mark to gain leverage in this fight was a unBartowski move, but when a fight becomes personal. All hands on deck.
First Kill also provides a dark side into what the agents deal with on a day to day basis. We glorify the story of the CIA because we deem them on the right side of the law, but Jill Roberts said it best, “They are no difference between Fulcrum and The CIA. They all are the same.” Secrets and lies are all one in the same. When you keep a secret, a lie is coming soon after. A secret requires covers and on and on.
The battle begins here, First Kill opens with Sarah walking towards the Nerd Herd Desk. Chuck was sitting as she approaches, Sarah has a frozen yogurt in hand. she offers it to Chuck with the name Obama Guava. While Sarah’s motives was to cheer up Chuck, he wasn’t pleased with the government’s decision to make a new yogurt recipe over news on finding his father.
He points it out. “No that I’m not thrilled that the CIA has found a new yogurt recipe, i was just I don’t know, kinda hoping the CIA would find my father first.” Sarah tries to provide some encouragement, but it’s been the same jargon Chuck was growing tired of.
Sarah: The government is doing anything they can to find him.
Chuck: How would I know I can trust them? The government wants to keep the intersect in my head. My father is the only person who can get it out. It’s not rocket science.
In typical fashion, Sarah tries to balance the two entities. Sarah was trying to keep things in perspective for Chuck, but also maintaining in the good graces with the agency. Sarah has been down this road before. Caught in the middle of a tug of war if you will. Sarah asked if Chuck trusted her? Walker has used these words before, and most of the time you can see she was trying to keep Chuck in line. This time we see a different expression of feeling Chuck has began to disconnect himself from the team and agency ever since his father was taken. You can see in her eyes she doesn’t want to lose the one connection she cherishes the most. Chuck’s trust was the very words she used on the beach when they first met.
From Chuck’s perspective we can understand his gripe, as he will say in a few minutes. He has done everything they asked. He has never signed up for this. He was there for Casey when Ilsa came around. He was there for Sarah when Jack and her trip to San Diego happened, but when he needed something the government wasn’t there in return.
The government used their muscles in trying to keep Bartowski down. A agency that secretly had a hit on him once 2.0 was running.
They came up with excuses or provide nothing at all. Chuck’s stand pat was gone the minute the doors shut on his father. This was the same man that went off mission to rescue his friend from a terrible beating from the hands of the Triads (Best Friend)
He was forced to play house with a woman he loves. Yet, his father’s kidnapping made him voice his displeasure at the lack of movement on the whereabouts of his father. After Beckman gives what Chuck deems as a none update, Casey tries to remind Chuck who he was talking to, but Chuck didn’t care.
He points out the year long perks of being an agent. He also reminds them of doing what they asked him to do, but something important to him all they can provide is nothing. The glorious perks Chuck was referring to would be the dangers of the job. The near death experiences Chuck must face. He asked if they could talk to any of the captured Fulcrum agents, but Casey and Sarah said they couldn’t trust any of them.
Casey’s idea of waterboarding was over due to the new administration. Sarah also believed the Fulcrum agents couldn’t be trusted even if they did speak. All easy excuses not to help Chuck. The fast thinking Chuck was present for this briefing, when he knew one Fulcrum agent he could get to talk. Jill Roberts would be the one he was talking about. Chuck’s maturation really begins to develop here. He is bold and using spycraft at his disposal. He asserted himself and conducted the interview. He talks to Jill about needing her help in locating his father.
At first Jill didn’t help, but this version of Chuck said all her problems was not his. All her choices was the reason she was behind bars. I want to take a minute to discuss Jill and Chuck. While watching all four episodes, I can gauge Jill has real emotions for Chuck. She may be a agent working for the enemy, but her feelings for Chuck never changed. Yes, she was in prison because of Chuck, but Chuck’s right. Her actions was the cause and she knew it too.
Jill’s place in this story comes with the same glorious perks Chuck was talking about, but never saw. She kept using lines like “Just do what he says.” in Gravitron. It’s equivalent to Sarah’s “just follow orders Chuck.” Yet, we say Sarah’s heart was in place. Why couldn’t it be the same for Jill.
We know her relationship with Bryce never articulated past the point of a relationship. Jill confirmed that the last time we saw her. The problem Chuckaholics was she was on a different team. She was told to end her relationship with Bartowski so she can pursue the very computer Sarah served to protect.
It’s that unique aspect to the story that is Jill and Sarah. It’s the very reason Chuck already had a trapezoid. All the parts shared similar stories with fake rings and fake engagements. It’s really fascinating to watch.
Thus, Jill knew in her heart she had to help Stephen Bartowski, but like others wanted a deal. Casey and Sarah didn’t want Chuck to make deal, but like the two experienced agent would do, Chuck said yes even though he knew he would burn her later. It’s basic spycraft, but it’s apart of the job description. Yet, Casey and Sarah were not on board with it. I understand the risk factor of Jill being out, but I never thought Jill had bad intentions when it came to Bartowski. At least, deep down that is.
Chuck and his team were going over the details of what happened to Stephen. They asked her where Fulcrum would keep Papa B. She claimed she didn’t know, but maybe her Uncle Bernie would know.
Uncle Bernie was a cover as he worked for Fulcrum, and had a higher rank than she did. However, Jill said Bernie was heavily guarded most times. The team would ask her what that meant and she said. “only during family occasions would he be alone.”
Chuck asked if there were any functions coming up. I always wonder how would she know being in prison. Did the CIA allow visits? I am sure they did, but she was believed to have been in Helsinki? Again, the quick thinking Chuck would conjugate a scheme to get the team alone with Uncle Bernie by staging a family function.
Another clear indication Chuck was beginning to become comfortable as a spy. A key moment only heightening what Bryce said, “It’s too late for Bartowski.” He’s becoming the spy he tried to avoid. A victim of his own success was apparent. The other aspect to think about was Chuck falling into the trap of what it means to be a spy. The old by any means necessary to accomplish what the mission was at the time. Chuck needed information only Jill could provide. Thus, the classic move to stage a fake engagement announcement was in store. A clever plan if you ask me. The mission isn’t all that bad for Roberts. She gets to see her family even if it’s under false pretenses. She gets a dose of freedom, but she was there to work. However, there was a moment of reliving a life that Fulcrum ruined.
For a cover, Jill looks happy. She is glowing which makes one believe she was enjoying the attention. Meanwhile, the party poopers that are Casey and most specifically Sarah were not amused with the festivities. They were hoping Bernie would come to save them from the facade. Sarah does not look pleased with the way Jill’s parents were rehashing memories of the past. Emotions display show the personal torture these missions take on people. The human side of these things makes it tough especially when one places their hearts on their sleeves. Sarah may have a job to do, but like Chuck had to live with Sarah in Cole’s room, Sarah has to stay where she was, but Sarah has a history of breaking the rules of a mission. Remember this? The idea of someone working with an ex or someone with a romantic interest can cause problems on a mission when compromised. This is why Jill is a bigger threat then Hannah or Lou. Jill seemed to knock Sarah out of her game a bit.
It’s a role reversal in a sense because Bryce had the same effect on Chuck. Take a look, it’s no secret on how the Andersons acted around Chuck. A fake ring and all, but still sparks a bout of jealousy from Chuck. The same can be said for Sarah. The idea Jill was wearing a ring even if it’s fake seemed to rattle Sarah’s cage. The problem though was Sarah also wore a fake ring, but seemed reluctant to take her’s off despite taking Chuck’s away.
The balance of fake vs real comes into play even for Larkin. Bryce was cherishing the moment of spending time with Sarah again. However, Sarah put a stop to that idea. It seems like Sarah wanted to control every aspect of every thing.
She wanted her cake and eat it too. The other thing to consider was the reality of Sarah moving on from Larkin. You can get that sense with her reaction to him being with her when she opens the door for Chuck (break up). Sarah could never possibly understand Chuck’s problems with an ex being with her especially with the person who sent him the Intersect is the ex.
Jill’s presence would provide Sarah’s turn in dealing with a resurfacing ex. The difference between Jill and Bryce would be Jill actually caring about Chuck despite being Fulcrum.
I digressed back to FIrst Kill. Bernie shows up and was startled by the news of Jill being in the house. This means Fulcrum didn’t know Jill was out. This always means Bernie senses something was up.
Bernie immediately questions the whereabouts of one Jill Roberts. The question was asked as if he knew Jill was in the big house. This would mean the man standing next to her was a CIA agent. Sometimes I wonder why writers like to make the good guy as the only smart one in the room. Bernie wanted a minute alone with the newly engaged couple, but it wouldn’t be the kind of discussion Jill’s parents were expecting. Jill’s actions while in the presence of Bernie shows you how she viewed the dangers of Fulcrum. She is a bit intimidated with his presence. Chuck’s flash also showed Bartowski how dangerous this man was. Bernie shouldn’t of been taken lightly.
Bernie trying to soften the mood, encourages Chuck to call him Bernie. They were family now. The institution of family can be convoluted, which family was Bernie talking about? Could Bernie try to convert Chuck to Fulcrum. Well, Bernie wasn’t given a chance.
Once alone, Chuck tells Bernie about how Jill flipped and was trying to help Bernie, but he wasn’t a willing dance partner. Bernie pulls a weapon on Chuck and Jill. It goes to show you how much one is important to an organization. It’s no different then what happens in the mafia.
What was going to be an interesting conversation between the three, soon would become a chase. Bernie chases after Jill and Chuck all the way to the attic. Chuck alerts Sarah and Casey about their trouble. Team Bartowski show up at the doorstep of Jill’s family house. Sarah playing the role as Chuck’s cousin and Casey was her boyfriend. A very odd pairing indeed. Chuck let’s Casey and Sarah know he was on the third floor. Bernie was closing in, but the big guy was huffing and puffing. Jill said they had to go up in order to get out. Bernie finally reaches them, and Jill asked Bernie not to do this.
Chuck was the sound of reason for a minute when he reminded Bernie the whole family would hear the shot. Bernie agreed, and elected to beat them to death with a bat. However, before Bernie can strike them with it. He has a heart attack when lifting the bat. Bernie falls to the floor. Casey and Sarah finally were able to reach Chuck and Jill.
Casey confirms Bernie dead and awarded Chuck with his first official kill. Casey asked Chuck what his move was. The whole holding face and shielding his crotch. Chuck called it the ” The Morgan.” A move invented during the years when Morgan was getting beaten up by girls.
We can say Jill’s actions were very similar to how she was in Gravitron, but remember Leader never intended to harm Jill. Leader’s plan was to get into Castle. Bernie was going to pull the trigger on Jill for working with the CIA. They leave the party with Bernie. They use the excuse of too much of the sauce as Chuck and Casey dragged Bernie’s body out of the house. For Jill, even though it was a facade. The moment of freedom can be great even if it’s for a short while. For Chuck, he was trying to put his family back together while taking Jill from hers. A path of lies, secrets and covers makes the job they do that much harder at least to someone like Chuck. It’s been a long time since Chuck and Sarah had a conversation about trust. A serious one not one staged with protocol nonsense around it. The last one came when Sarah came walking into his bedroom in Predator. The idea behind trust comes with a two way street. If one side is only providing the trust, we face the inevitable disaster that Chuck and Sarah will face down the road, but here we have a rather perturbed Chuck. He learns that Jill will be sent back to prison much to Sarah’s delight and Chuck’s frustration.
Jill was the link between Chuck finding his father and losing him for good. Sarah thinking selfishly because of her disdain for Jill Roberts makes Chuck point that out, but Sarah was still not willing to help Chuck keep Jill around. The perils of trust comes when both sides are not seeing eye to eye on a issue. It’s clear Sarah does not like Jill’s presence and she would be more thrilled with Roberts gone then side with Chuck, which most of the time Walker does, but it seems when it impacts Sarah personally, she won’t be so willing to help.
Sarah claims there are some people you just can’t trust. Chuck is learning this, and grabs Sarah’s wrist and tells her how he knew that already, and the only person he trusts is her, but Sarah still says no. It’s interesting to watch how Chuck and Sarah’s relationship seems at the brink at times and other times seem ready to take a leap forward.
Ironically, Morgan calls about the same problem he was having with Milbarge. Chuck’s little buddy was in a trap between trusting Emmett like Chuck was with Jill, but Chuck said it right. “Sometimes you have to just trust the person,” which was what Chuck was planning on doing with Jill.
The reality is we often ask how can a person turn out to be so bad, and I think back to what Jack Bauer said in the first season of 24. The guys he took down, who turned out to be dirty were not bad guys. They just made one bad decision. Jill made one bad decision. She allowed herself to be brainwashed by Fulcrum, and as a result was sent to prison.
Time in prison often changes people, and the more Jill thought the more she was right. The CIA and Fulcrum use their agents for their own gain. The measure of doing what’s right or wrong then become grey because of the assignments given. The agents of both factions are required to follow orders or suffer the consequences.
Both Jill and Sarah have made tough decisions, and the more they hate each other the more we should realize the common ground these two women have. Sarah’s world changed when meeting Chuck. The same can be said for Jill. The common problem was Bryce. All four play a role at some point. It’s why this story was the best story told throughout the series.
Before Chuck left Jill’s cell, she said she knew the CIA was never going to let her go. She asked Chuck please don’t let them change him. It’s funny how Bryce, Jill and Sarah will all plea for Chuck not to change in some capacity. What’s amazing about the closing moments of the scene, Jill shows she wishes the ring Chuck gave her was real.
The team was preparing the transfer of Jill’s return to prison. When Bernie’s phone goes off. Casey orders Chuck not to answer, but Chuck didn’t listen. He answers as Bernie, and the voice on the other end said they were moving Orion.
Chuck let his team know, and they told Chuck to keep the man on the phone so they could trace it. They did keep the guy on long enough to trace the call.
Jill instantly knew where the call came from. She said, “I- I know that building. It’s the headquarters for the Strength Leadership Corporation. They run CEO and management training seminars, but really that’s just a front for a FULCRUM recruiting facility.” Team Bartowski wanted to know why they would keep Orion there. The building had holding cells there.”
Jill would ask the team to let her help since she knew the ins and out of the building. Normally, you would say Jill was lying, but after her conversation with Chuck a few minutes ago. I think Jill found religion. Jill’s taste of normalcy woke her up, and now was seeking redemption by helping Chuck find his father.
The other awaken moment was Bernie trying to kill her. Jill was willing to help Bartowski now. It’s funny Casey once said having Jill work the mission was a key since she had personal knowledge of Guy. The same can be said when Beckman asked Chuck to use his friendship with Anna to get close to the Triads in Best Friend. There was fine line between being a agent of the agency or for a better term a pawn in the bigger picture. Trust will be tested from here on out, and while somethings change others remain the same. Casey and Chuck would enter the building as potential recruits into Fulcrum. Jill and Sarah were quarterbacking from the van. The tension could be cut with a knife between the two ladies. Jill gets them passed the front desk, and into the testing area. I guess Jill never knew about the cameras hidden in the monitors because Fulcrum identified who Chuck and Casey really were. Chuck asked Jill what to do next, and she told him to take the test. Casey and Chuck reach the eighth floor, but redirected to the testing room. During the test, there was a funny moment between Chuck and Casey, while taking the test Chuck wouldn’t allow Casey to copy his work. It was quite funny. We still see Sarah show signs of edginess in working with Jill. Arms folded across the chest, while snickering with each move Jill was instructing. Sarah clearly has trust issue with this woman. It’s easy to understand why, and it has a lot to do with her attempt in killing Sarah, but it has a lot to do with how Chuck sides with Jill despite the risks.
To be fair, Jill could turn on them. It’s easy to assume since she did it before, but Jill didn’t have any reason to not be truthful. Fulcrum makes their move in detaining Casey and Chuck. The test proctor told Casey he failed his test, and Chuck passed. They were set to escort Casey to a certain death, and Chuck the same but Fulcrum had some questions for Bartowski.
While Casey and Chuck in trouble, this meant the two ladies had to work together in saving their male counterparts. Sarah was reluctant at first, but the voice of reason from Jill left Sarah with no other choice. They had to go in together. The two women who Chuck shares a intimate connection with working together, but what seemed like Jill was going to rejoin Fulcrum was more interested in escaping. She bails on Sarah when open fire begins. This was Roberts opening for fleeing. However, when Jill hears Chuck was in trouble. Jill went to help him. It’s clear in this scene Jill isn’t Fulcrum anymore. She may be for herself, but Chuck’s safety was important to her too.
It also goes to show you Jill may still care for Bartowski. It’s this moment when Chuck saw that Jill wasn’t the lost lamb from earlier in the season. Jill Roberts and Chuck found the connection they once had, but with that also meant the end of the line. Chuck knew it this time. After finding out they were too late in saving Orion, Chuck didn’t burn Jill instead he let her loose. He also gave her the ring he hoped he would’ve gave her years ago as a source of income.
Jill would ask Chuck if he could trust them? If there wasn’t feelings why would she ask for him? Jill also let’s Chuck know where Fulcrum were taking his father. Jill said “they are taking him to black rock.” Chuck flashed on the name and knew where it was located. Rewinding back to her helping Chuck from falling out the window, Jill still could’ve left, but she went with Chuck to find Orion. She was by Chuck side, and if you ask me that’s major points in my book.
Casey would come to the aide of Sarah, who was pinned down from gunfire. Casey asked where was Jill. Walker said she escaped. We will close the Jill portion of the store with this analysis. The difference between Jill and Sarah was the fact Jill never knew Chuck had the Intersect. Thus, the attraction Jill has for Chuck is genuine. We can always say Sarah’s connection was the Intersect and Bryce, but what about Jill? Roberts never had the inkling of knowing he was the Intersect. We can assume based on her reaction when Chuck told her where Fulcrum’s hideout was in Barstow.
When Chuck decides to let her go. We can see feelings still behind Jill’s eyes despite all the years and what Chuck was lead to believe Jill did tell the truth she wasn’t over Bartowski either. She wanted the same life Sarah wants with Chuck except Jill was a fugitive and needed to go. While Chuck did what felt right, the agency thought differently. Jill was Fulcrum. She knew Chuck’s secret as a agent, and it was becoming more and more obvious Chuck was a liability and when Casey suggests dumping Chuck in a hole. Beckman granted the request, which opened the eyes of Sarah.
What makes this scene so iconic was the very words I mentioned above. The agents are pawns in the bigger picture. The CIA may be on the right side of the law, but they are just as dirty as Fulcrum. They don’t have connections with people because they can’t.
Battles and wars are won when agents follow orders and it’s not good for them if agents show humanity. Chuck showed humanity towards Jill much like Sarah shows humanity before she came to the Buymore. The relationships one builds also helps see the ugliness we saw here. Chuck was important until he became expendable. When he went against the grain, Sarah sees it now. Sarah sees they would never let Chuck go, and the only one who could protect him would be her.
The agency used the very line that triggered her shift from Agent Walker to Sarah Walker. Beckman said, “Use your connection with Chuck to lure Chuck to captivity.” Sarah became irate with Casey for not saying anything. Casey helped her in Marlin, but here was willing to put him in the whole. Casey was following orders as I just mentioned. Sarah was going to do the same thing. The moment would change after two words. Her orders were simple. Tell Chuck they intercepted Orion’s transfer and bring him to Castle. Sarah did just that. However, Chuck used two words that mattered most to Sarah. Two words that Sarah held dear to her when it came to Chuck.
Chuck: I owe you an apologize…
Chuck: I was beginning to think that i couldn’t trust you anymore, Sarah.
That maybe Jill was right, that the CIA was never gonna let me go, That they would always put their best interest ahead of mine.
But not you.
You’ve always looked out for me, Thank you.
Sarah’s reaction tells the story. First, Sarah was struggling with lying. her eyes indicated how much this was destroying her, but after Sarah heard he was losing his trust in her. Sarah became the hero everyone talked about in Marlin, but only now she followed through with her heart.
The idea that the CIA could break them apart was too much and we get the ultimate line from Sarah to this point. A moment that will be iconic amongst Chuckaholics.
Sarah: Take off your watch
Chuck does take his watch off, and with Casey looking on from Castle. Sarah dumps the watch into a basket by the door, and they were off. Chuck says “you will go to jail.” Sarah’s I know but don’t care indicates the moment in which Sarah’s feelings for Chuck came to the forefront. The moment when action takes over.
Jill saved Chuck’s life from Fulcrum earlier, and Sarah was saving Chuck’s life from the CIA. My have things seem so similar from both of Chuck’s leading women. Jill and Sarah will always be linked together in that regard.
The next episode is a classic one also, but while it’s a very popular amongst the fans because of what it did for Chuck and Sarah’s relationship, but I will explain my theory why Colonel was the beginning of Prague. Why this moment was the start of the end of Chuck as we knew it. Remember Chuckaholics is your site, so play, engage but most of all it’s hard to say goodbye because we didn’t……Next up Chuck vs The Colonel.